Day 195

Yesterday did not improve: grumpy, frumpy, achy. Ate everything in sight as well as two bags of Australian licorice that is nowhere as good as Panda. Napped in front of TV.  I can’t pinpoint the tantrum but felt uncomfortable and unwell. I did walk and the air was bad too. I’m ready to regain my usual self and have a better day. I don’t like wasting a day but that was what it was. Today is visitor’ center duty and I need groceries.

Day 194

It’s drive the car day and I don’t want to. May turn it on and let it idle for ten minutes. Don’t want to grocery shop. Don’t want to tidy the house. All negative choices. What do I want? I’m going to sit here until I know. I want to go to Brookings and wander through the thrift stores, have lunch at Chan’s, and come home with ideas. I want a friend to go places with so I don’t always depend on Hollie.

Day 193

Today is museum duty plus whatever comes up. I will walk to the farmers’ market after duty for vegs. I need a bunch of fresh stuff for my food plan since my own plants have given up for the season. I do love going out and picking things and eating them immediately. I enjoyed the visitors yesterday. Still lots of traveling and there were several Canadians with interesting stories. Tenaya brought smoked salmon that she caught with a net. I won’t share it.

Day 192

I cleaned and cleaned outside plus cleaning my bedroom too. Then I sat. It was a cold night. I’m guessing that if I put the down comforter back then we will get our Indian summer and have warm nights. Oh well, it’s okay to pull up the spread when I get a chill. Busy dreams. All positive about sharing and family feeling. Woke up ready for another busy day at the visitors’ center and my home. The garden shed is next for cleaning.

Day 191

Best part of yesterday? Walk, talk, and lunch with Hollie. I need to see her at least once a week. She is important to me. Church was its usual family feel. Must be like the early church when folks met in homes for simple services. It meets my needs for ritual. Today I will weed in Megan’s’ yard. I can fill the wheelbarrow in minutes from there. The deck is full of weeds growing through the cracks. Might pull the pea vines down.

Day 190

Another long night after a busy day with activity and people. I enjoyed being part of the dem barbecue. It was efficiently and compatibly set up and taken down. Everyone had a duty and they were good at doing it. Early this morning Karen came and we took a lot of tiny gravensteins from the neighbors’ unthinned apple tree. She will make and can applesauce. It’s too much for me. Who else has a friend who wants to midnight requisition free organic food.

Day 189

Long sleep after a tiring day. Busy at the center followed by emotional time with Julia confessing to being scammed for $6K by her on-line man friend. She sold her car, her furniture, everything for him. She is humiliated and heart-broken. Today is the Dem barbecue and Hollie will go with me and help out. She and I like to do things together. Last year the smoke was down to the ground and miserable. Better today and I’m looking forward to the event.